Yes the first (official) week back has been hell. It all started with my exhusband having the kids for only 5 days and screwing them up. G is so scared of "ghosted" she will not sleep. It's been 3 weeks since she has slept through the night. One night , she screamed for 2 hours before she feel asleep. She was screaming, "God, send your angles to protect me!" It has gotten so bad she will not even go the bathroom by herself. She also will not be alone for any reason. I am at wits end with her.
A is just being a little brother, starting fights, yelling at her when she is too bossy, the norm. He however, is sleeping through the night. ( once he gets to sleep!) It takes him a good hour of tossing and turning before he is asleep.
Thank you NUT! Such good partenting, letting the children stay up to all hours of the night. And then letting them get up at noonish. As always he gets to be "disney dad" and get to be "mean mommy"! I want to be the cool mom. Or at least the mom my kids to not see as being mean for always having to say no b/c their nutball father gives them anything. I know if I cared less or not at all for them, it would be a helluvalot easier for me. But I do care.
Then last Friday J lost her dad. Gene was a good friend and like a father to me. I loved him very much. When J called me at 6pm I could not believe it. This was a man less than 2 months ago read at my wedding and danced with me. Just a few days before teased me at church. I went straight to the hospital to give my support and love to the whole family. It continued throughout the weekend. The family, as well as many of us, was hit hard by this lost.
Then I had to get up and go to work. I always work 10-12 hour days the first 2-3 weeks of school. This week was no exception.
Monday brought long hours and lots of moving big heavy things around. I come to my Dad on his way to the ER for tummy problems.
The hardest day was Wednesday. I went to hear stupid speeches for an hour then went to the funeral, then came back to work to teach my colleges. (yes, I was in charge of the workshop) Then, I worked in my room for another six hours. When I finally got home I went straight to bed only to find I could not sleep. It's been a good 3 weeks since I have slept through the night. Oh God I want sleep!
My lilsis calls me on Thursday night to tell me she is getting married. Well no duh! But here is the kicker she and Kevin are getting married Sat morning. ( and your own choice words here. Mine were way too much) So Friday I worked then after work went with lilsis to get the stuff for the wedding.
So today I went to my sister's wedding. And just a call from my mom who is going to the ER again.
I told you it was one helluva week!
~niffer
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