Getting over it

That was my phrase for so long. "Just get over it!" Now I'm doing just that. I thought I had but then little things just bite you in the ass and say look at me. Well, no more. I am getting over it. So read on but know I am getting over it.
I had been hurt (really bad) by a good friend. She was the kind of person I wanted to be friends with. She was very different from me. Almost the opposite of me.
I went through a time when I did not agree with her way of life. I was young and still trying to find my way and knew I didn't like the direction she was taking hers. I also knew I could not be around that lifestyle without letting it influence me. As it turned out, I needed a lot of grow up time. We later became good friends again. Later being when I knew who I was and her lifestyle was hers to live, not mine.
She helped me through a lot with the divorce and the moving to VA. I was trying to help her through her hell of a year. When I got engaged I though she would be happy that I was finally happy. I was where I needed to be in life and deserved some happiness. I was wrong. For what ever reason she got so mad at me she has stopped talking to me. She even took my link down from her blog.
This really hurt me deep inside. But I thought if I give her space and time we will find that friendship again. I gave her space and time. I did not really talk about what was going on with anyone. I didn't "bad mouth" her. I didn't go or hang around people or places I knew she might be around. I tried very hard not to put anyone in the middle of this fight. Including her cousins.
Turns out it was a bad idea. She was "bad mouthing" me. She was putting mutual friends in the middle. And trying to air my dirty laundry. Trying to get everyone to pick her side over mine.
I may not have agreed with most of what she has done with her life. But I was always there for her and supported her. And no, I will not air dirty laundry. Afterall, I was a true friend.
I spent many nights crying over this lost of friendship. Not any more. I am done. For those of you who have chosen to pick sides and have picked hers this also applys to you too.
Fuck you all! Friendship is no longer an option.
~Niffer

Purrelln'

So, Hubby is back. A week wihout him has been very hard. I have been working long hours at work (like 12-14 hour days). This is what happens when your school doesn't meet AYP. (No Child Left Behind) I am upset with what is being done about it but then again I am not the administrator. I am actively looking at other schools in the area. (and out of the area) If you know of any good ones that need a Kindergarten teacher, let me know.
For the most part life here is good. Ms. G has a sprain thumb. She has been in a brace for the last 2 weeks. She has one more week left. If the swelling goes down. So far it is still very black and blue and very swollen. I am worried about her. The doctor said it could take as long as six weeks to heal. To top all of this off, it is her right hand. So no writing with her hand. She has been trying to write with the left. I know her teacher is loving that. (NOT!)
Mr. A is doing well in Kindergarten. He loves his teacher, I love his teacher. She is wonderful. He still is not sure why he is in kindergarten again. It has been hard to explain it to him. I am hoping soon he will just let it go and not worry about it any more.
The NUT is still being an ass. Although, he did pay child support. $25. He is more than a year behind and I get a check for $25. I do not know if I should look at it as a slap in the face or as "well, at least he is trying." He been telling the kids lies about Sean and me. I believe he is the whole reason Ms. G is having a hardttime sleeping through the night. I also believe he is the reason Mr. A is being so moody with Sean and myself. I tried to tell The NUT it is inappropriate for him to sleep with the kids. He said, "I don't think it is." (Roll eyes) That !@#$%^&*()_ has no idea what is and is not appropriate for anyone. I found out he is also dating a women with 2 young kids. I am not sure what to think of all that. As long as it is not hurting my kids. Maybe it will make the NUT eaiser to deal with.
Ok back to the grind of school work.
Leave me some love!
~niffer

Mr and Mrs.

I have worked all afternoon on lilsis' wedding pictures. I have had a lot of fun doing all this. I made some black and white, changed color settings, antique,and even (dear I say) cropped a few. I wish I could do this with my pictures! I guess that is what happeneds when you hire a professional. I have posted 2 fairly good ones. I will post my favorite 2 later.
~Nif

One hell of a week

Yes the first (official) week back has been hell. It all started with my exhusband having the kids for only 5 days and screwing them up. G is so scared of "ghosted" she will not sleep. It's been 3 weeks since she has slept through the night. One night , she screamed for 2 hours before she feel asleep. She was screaming, "God, send your angles to protect me!" It has gotten so bad she will not even go the bathroom by herself. She also will not be alone for any reason. I am at wits end with her.
A is just being a little brother, starting fights, yelling at her when she is too bossy, the norm. He however, is sleeping through the night. ( once he gets to sleep!) It takes him a good hour of tossing and turning before he is asleep.
Thank you NUT! Such good partenting, letting the children stay up to all hours of the night. And then letting them get up at noonish. As always he gets to be "disney dad" and get to be "mean mommy"! I want to be the cool mom. Or at least the mom my kids to not see as being mean for always having to say no b/c their nutball father gives them anything. I know if I cared less or not at all for them, it would be a helluvalot easier for me. But I do care.
Then last Friday J lost her dad. Gene was a good friend and like a father to me. I loved him very much. When J called me at 6pm I could not believe it. This was a man less than 2 months ago read at my wedding and danced with me. Just a few days before teased me at church. I went straight to the hospital to give my support and love to the whole family. It continued throughout the weekend. The family, as well as many of us, was hit hard by this lost.
Then I had to get up and go to work. I always work 10-12 hour days the first 2-3 weeks of school. This week was no exception.
Monday brought long hours and lots of moving big heavy things around. I come to my Dad on his way to the ER for tummy problems.
The hardest day was Wednesday. I went to hear stupid speeches for an hour then went to the funeral, then came back to work to teach my colleges. (yes, I was in charge of the workshop) Then, I worked in my room for another six hours. When I finally got home I went straight to bed only to find I could not sleep. It's been a good 3 weeks since I have slept through the night. Oh God I want sleep!
My lilsis calls me on Thursday night to tell me she is getting married. Well no duh! But here is the kicker she and Kevin are getting married Sat morning. ( and your own choice words here. Mine were way too much) So Friday I worked then after work went with lilsis to get the stuff for the wedding.
So today I went to my sister's wedding. And just a call from my mom who is going to the ER again.
I told you it was one helluva week!
~niffer