Getting over it

That was my phrase for so long. "Just get over it!" Now I'm doing just that. I thought I had but then little things just bite you in the ass and say look at me. Well, no more. I am getting over it. So read on but know I am getting over it.
I had been hurt (really bad) by a good friend. She was the kind of person I wanted to be friends with. She was very different from me. Almost the opposite of me.
I went through a time when I did not agree with her way of life. I was young and still trying to find my way and knew I didn't like the direction she was taking hers. I also knew I could not be around that lifestyle without letting it influence me. As it turned out, I needed a lot of grow up time. We later became good friends again. Later being when I knew who I was and her lifestyle was hers to live, not mine.
She helped me through a lot with the divorce and the moving to VA. I was trying to help her through her hell of a year. When I got engaged I though she would be happy that I was finally happy. I was where I needed to be in life and deserved some happiness. I was wrong. For what ever reason she got so mad at me she has stopped talking to me. She even took my link down from her blog.
This really hurt me deep inside. But I thought if I give her space and time we will find that friendship again. I gave her space and time. I did not really talk about what was going on with anyone. I didn't "bad mouth" her. I didn't go or hang around people or places I knew she might be around. I tried very hard not to put anyone in the middle of this fight. Including her cousins.
Turns out it was a bad idea. She was "bad mouthing" me. She was putting mutual friends in the middle. And trying to air my dirty laundry. Trying to get everyone to pick her side over mine.
I may not have agreed with most of what she has done with her life. But I was always there for her and supported her. And no, I will not air dirty laundry. Afterall, I was a true friend.
I spent many nights crying over this lost of friendship. Not any more. I am done. For those of you who have chosen to pick sides and have picked hers this also applys to you too.
Fuck you all! Friendship is no longer an option.
~Niffer